Everything all of the time

I have tended to neglect sing soul sing this last semester. Often I only use it as a place to vent, or to write pure crap. It was something that I was once (what now feels like years ago) inspired to write in everyday. Fuck I wish it was that easy.

Things that i would have gladly written about - music movies and the such - no longer 'do' anything for me.

A lot of the things I have been passionate about this year have all be packed tightly away and sucked into a big black mass of nothingness.

Its been hard for me to distinguish if something does make me happy, or if its just an inbuilt reaction.

I hate nothingness and meaninglessness almost more then i hate being numb.

"In darkness a light shines

On me.

In darkness a light shines

On you.

Oh what'd I say?!

Oh, but sister in our darkness a light shines!

(Oh what'd I say?!)

And all I ever want to say for the rest of my life,

(Oh What'd I say!)

Is how the light is GOD!

(Our Lord is come!)

And through I've been mistaken on this or that point,

That light is God."