I am so consumed by all that I think to be real

But I am getting nowhere and I need you to be

Right here right now

I need you somehow to take whatever it is away

So I can believe

That you're right along side of me

I stand in an unfamilar place

I guess I've gone as far as I can on my own

So can you walk with me and know how I feel

Well I'll listen to you

So tell me what you see

Right here right now...

(the sundance kids: including the atmosphere: all you need to hear)

I know you'll come in the night like a thief
But I've had some time alone to hold my lies inside me
I know you think that I'm someone you can trust
But I'm scared I'll get scared and I swear I'll try to nail you back up
Brand New: The Devil and God are raging inside me: Jesus Christ
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you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go
Sufjan Stevens: Illinois: Chicago

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Oh sugar, don't you cry
Oh child, wipe the tears from your eyes
You know I need you to be strong
And the day is as dark as the night is long
Feel like trash, you make me feel clean
U2: Achtung Baby: Ultra Violet (light my way)

sing soul sing

Sailing in our separate ships and from each tiny caravel.

'The mass of men lead lives of quite desperation.'

Henry David Thoreau (1817-1862)

Someone hit the light
'Cause there's more here to be seen
When you caught my eye
I saw everywhere I'd been
And wanna go to
~Editors : An end has a start

ashes

Being in a rut is something that makes me feel like I am slowly suffocating. Waves of thoughts crash and I get stuck in one more drift.

Its been a weird start to Yits for the second semester, when I am still slowly processing things from right back from the beginning of the year.

I have no energy

and that makes it feel like I am being useless.

Every couple of months I get urges to pack up and go anywhere but here. Do something unexpected..try something new. And it has hit again.

I need adrenalin. I am sick of living in a way that doesn't fully express what I believe, what I am passionate about (and even what that is at the moment I haven't the faintest idea) and continuing to live a mundane life with the same thoughts and no actions.

I need change

and the sooner the better.

~photo was taken in Melbourne~